The scariest chapter of the Adventure so far….
It’s the start of my holidays and I am perched cross-legged on the sofa, computer on my lap, trying to finish something that I started nearly three years ago.
For those of you who have been following My Big Geek Adventure from the very start, you will know that my journey started with a list. A list of all the geeky things I had ever wanted to experience. Before this blog, before the Facebook page, it had all started with an idea.
The idea that life was to be lived, savoured and experienced. A lot has grown from that seed of an idea. I’ve travelled, I’ve met some amazing people and seen some spectacular sights. And during all of these experiences, I’ve been writing, keeping a diary of the whole crazy time and now is the time for it to see the light of day. My very first book (creatively titled My Big Geek Adventure) will be available to download in just a couple of weeks time!
Is there a more nerve-wracking feeling than putting something you have poured your heart and soul into out into the world ? I’m not worried about no one reading it. In fact, part of me hopes that only a few people do (crazy I know). I’m more worried that those who read it think it’s silly. Or badly written. Or just a waste of time.
Once we have created something, whether it’s a book or a painting or a song, how do we let it go? That’s the big question for me. At the moment, my book is mine. It’s something I’ve talked about but not really shared with other people (apart from a few blog posts). I can only imagine that this must be what a parent feels when their child goes to school. They have nurtured it, cared for it and now it has to make it’s own way in the world. This book feels like my baby and while I know it’s time to let it go, it doesn’t’ make it any easier.
So while you are reading this, I’m sitting cross-legged on my couch, correcting spelling mistakes, working on the cover blurb and wondering if I am crazy to even contemplate letting my book go. Wish me luck!